got a digital camera so i'll be putting more pics up i'm sure. gonna finally work on bluespot.org too. let's keep in touch, and God bless all of u. its been an amazing 4 years. this song keeps playing in my head as i go...

its's always nice and easy to say hello to you,
i'm not sure i know how to say goodbye,
can u tell me friend, what's so good about goodbyes,
don't you know that, a baby cries when the mother leaves its side
but i believe we were never meant to speak those words too many times,
but i guess i'll have to learn to say them now... to you.

3.8.2000
its been a crazy year. too personal to write about on the web. not sure what i'll think of this year when i look back at it in the future, but for now, its not worth dwelling on. just some tidbits, i'm on my way back to east coast for work next year (sapient in nyc/nj), this after almost having surely decided to work in their chicago office, i'm putting the medschool thing on hold for a bit till i know better, and i've shaved my head. oh yeah, i finally put up bluespot.org so things will start moving over to there. new email: .

8.23.99
well its over. but after finally taking the mcats this past weekend, i was left with such an anti-climatic feeling. i mean i spent an entire summer preparing for this thing and its over in a day. all those hours in the library stressing over every detail seem so pointless nowadays especially since basically 90% of what i studied wasn't even on the test. obviously its gotta work out that way or else the exam would be ridiculously long, but i guess it's still just kinda sucky. the verbal section was ok, i had some trouble with one of the passages but i was glad i finished it all at least. i lucked out with my physical science section cause i got alot of pchem passages rather then physics passages. but i guess u can't get it all u're way cause my biological science section was pretty tough. more orgo than i expected and in a lot more detail. i think i did ok, but orgo is always tougher than bio cause the answers aren't so fact based. plus i studied bio alot more than orgo. argh. anyway, u never really know how u did since everything is curved. just gotta wait till october--man i really hope i'm done with this, it would suck bigtime if i had to take it again in april.

i've basically been a hermit for the summer so now i've finally got a bit of time to play around before school. plans for the week? umm, get a haircut, get some new shoes, play some ball again, play my new guitar, and pack bigtime. trying to get over a cold i caught i think from stressin too much. got some antibiotics so i should be back in action in no time. meanwhile, its been movie marathons for me. i'm off to michigan on fri. gotta finda place to crash though, can't move in till the 1st i think. i'm gonna miss the cable modem at home--no more mp3s and no more linux server. boo :(. hmm... resolution for the new school year: more frequent updates on my webpage. someone hold me accountable to that.

5.28.99
i have just spend the last hour on the web, surfing through all of these other people's "thoughts pages". i'm quite dumbfounded at how many of these pages are really out there and it makes me wonder why people (including me) put these things up. hmm... i can't even tell u why i do it--i know most people in the world are not going to be reading this (if anyone does) but i guess it is some sort of expression that reflects the possiblity of the world reading it, mainly a way of venting myself to the world in a sense, sorta.

but in anycase, it's interestingly enough for me since it acts as a journal of sorts to me, so i shall continue on with it, for the time being. though i'm am beginning to think that i should be putting down more of my thoughts rather than my random doings. we shall see what comes of it. as of now, nothing particular is going through my mind (sad isn't it), so i shall once again resign to my log of activities to fill the rest of this entry. i came back from cali on tuesday after thoroughly enjoying myself with all-you-can-eat sushi bars, seafood dinners on the bay, italian & french desserts, and of course some good old chinese food. i must say the food was definitely the highlight of the trip. i did finally get to check out the bay area for a while, scoping possible sites of future employment. berkeley was what i expected, sorta, kinda like ann arbor, but bigger and probably more going on. still, after 4 years of that, i can move on. which brings me to stanford; i must say i was quite impressed, its amazing what a ton of money can get u. a perfectly laid out and maintained campus, with a year round weather forecast of nothing but mild, glorious weather. i am envious. though the one thing that did begin to get to me was the seemingly overabundent number of asians there, or cali in general. berkeley was especially owning in this area. i guess i'm just not used to living around so many asians and perhaps maybe i'm a little whitewashed but i really do think i would have trouble getting accustomed to that environment. perhaps i need to improve my chinese a bit eh? well, beyond that, i was truly impressed by the entire bay area and i think i'm alot more open to job opportunities there. we shall see what happens though, i'm still an east coaster at heart.

5.8.99
i've basically played more than i ever have these past 2 weeks. i finished my last final on the the 23rd of april and have been just hanging out since then. its been really good though to spend time with people i don't normally hang out with that much and to do things i haven't had time to do in a while, like cooking. i've also managed to rack up quite a few miles on my car lately--a trip to chicago, a trip up to mackinac island, visiting george at msu, and some other trips here and there. heading home monday so i gotta pack out soon. the rest of may should be pretty easy and fun still, going out to cali for a week to see my cousin's berkeley graduation and i should be able to visit the cathys' while i'm there. then its my home church's retreat when i get back. i think i'll finally get down to business in june when my mcat class starts. should be a good summer despite the lack of income this year... hope the stock market is good to me.

2.9.99
things have been kinda tough lately, i guess especially schoolwork-wise. the workload is kinda getting to me for the first time in a while and i'm wondering if i'm just being lazy or if the work this term is really just more difficult than usual. my operating systems class is definitely interesting but more conceptually challenging than alot of the other cs courses i've had. i find myself spending like 10 minutes thinking about every couple of lines of code i write. quite frustrating at times. pchem has turned out to be a lot more than i bargained for. tonight's exam turned out alot harder than expected. difficult not necessarily because of the material, but it was the time factor that killed me. in any case, i came away with that not so good feeling for the first time in a while--which is scaring the heck out of me. i hope it's not a trend. but this semester is making me think more about myself, how i have always said that grades aren't everything and that i can accept whatever comes my way. but as reality sets in, i find myself unwilling to accept anything less that what i'm used, which basically reflects my inability to let go completely and really give it up to God. an invaluable lesson to be learned.

1.7.99
finally made it back here to a2. got lucky and caught a 7:30 flight on tuesday night. redesigned some of the website, still more to go but i think i've run out of time for a while. err, could be a summer project now. too much snow here, makes driving a pain and parking especially worse. gotta run, OS class awaits me.

1.5.99
airlines suck. or at least northwest does. my flight back to a2 got cancelled on me yesterday, AFTER i waited 2 and half hours on the check in line--ridiculous! then, the earliest flight they have available is on wednesday morning, i got class that day yo. so anyway, i'm back at home, hoping the weather doesn't go awry again so i can actually make it to class tomorrow. i bet my car is still buried in the snow at school too. argh.

1.2.99
a new year should mean a new redesign of this website, so a major overhaul should be in the works, hopefully. break has been really good, went skiing out in utah for a week with my family and a high school bud's family, met up with rich pak there too. snow was decent, though bare at times. a storm rolled through in the middle of the week so we had a couple good days of knee deep powder.

heaadin back to school in 2 days, chris kang is coming over tomorrow for a day so i gotta somehow entertain him. the chicago crew ended up not coming for the break cause of the huge winter storm out there, oh well, maybe spring break or something. i'm actually kinda looking forward to next semester, should be more work though than the last one. oh yeah, michigan won the citrus bowl and the big ten went 5-0 in bowl games. hey ucla boys out there (andy and brian), sorry about that. heh.

11.14.98
i'm sitting here in the union on one of these new 'cyber computer stations' right in the middle of the food court trying to relax and chill out for a bit, its not working well though. i treked over here to check out this pre-med club sponsered research/volunteer fair--i knew i should never of gone to any "pre-med" event. its so stereotypical, cutthroat premedies who's only thought in mind is dauntless task of making a med school. no cares about what medicine really is or learning if its really for them, no, they KNOW they are going to be doctors and thus will use all possible means to obtain admission. i'm sick of premeddies. though its probably hypocritical of me to say this since i myself tend to fall into the same category. but at least i've got computers to distract my attention, heh.

i've got this stupid probability exam tomorrow that's scaring the crap out of me. 2 question tests suck, they're just not fair. well, i don't think i can look at any more problems so i'm just gonna waste time until my soccer game tonight. hmm, maybe i'll convince andy to trek over here and shoot some pool, that boy is always up for pool. or maybe i'll just waste some money on tekken. in anycase, its gettin too cold for soccer, my knees hurt in this cold weather. but i want one of those dang champion t-shirts! already 2 years of effort in vain, i can't make it a 3rd ;).

10.7.98
we lost our im soccer game yesterday--i think we need to put more key players on defense since we're getting burned alot. oh well, its only im i guess. i got to attend a special lecture by benoit mandlebrot today, the founder of fractals and the mandlebrot set. its quite amazing to sit and listen to someone that u and so many people respect give a talk about a field of work that he himself invented. its like going to the primary source. well, most of the talk was on the invariance of roughness and why fractals have been so useful in their applications, though parts of it went over my head. played some ball finally today, except my foot's still busted from yesterday. argh.

9.24.98
i'm procrastinating again. i can't bring myself to do any more of this probability homework; it really hurts to think about this stuff. but then i don't feel like memorizing chinese characters or doing nasty assembly programming. i'm so apathetic its sickening. just let me ski and i'll be fine ;).

9.7.98
back at in a2. drove up friday with sung and dp; quite an experience, we lost sung in ohio and he ended up going all the way to indiana before he realized his blunder. apartment is pretty nice, my single is quite big and cozy, its just the location thats getting to me a bit. not used to being this far away. crazy night last night--sung decided to go swimming in the lurie fountain on n. campus. its only 3 feet deep. somehow he managed to swim laps on it. weird. classes begin tomorrow, ugh. not ready yet, but who is.

9.1.98
last day of work. i'm headin back to michigan friday with dp and sung. lookin forward to it. these past few days have been so blah, and the downward spiral of the stock market, as well as in general the world's economy has kind of put a gloom on the past week. but its a reminder to me that nothing in this world is eternal except God's grace and love, and it is only Him that i can depend my life on. so with that in mind and heart, i begin the new year, and the thought of that alone, unburdens my worries and fears.

8.21.98
whoa, aug is almost over. not sure i'm ready for school again. home is finally comfy again. played hooky from work yesterday and went to great adventure with sung, easter, charles, and bri chang. turned out to be a great day, weather was nice, and lines weren't too long. got to get on most of the rides without too much of a wait. tried out the wall climbing thingy, was the best part of the day. though it was alot harder than i thought. made it up about 3/4 of the way (ok maybe i'm stretching that) before i was like shaking and dropped off. heh heh, i shouldn't of looked down either. bri chang got pretty far up too. but then easter climbs all the way to the top (our excuse: she took the easier wall) so that was kinda embarrasing. supergirl easter. look for pics later when easter develops them finally.

its friday, woo. not sure what's up for the weekend, still have to try to get some us open tix though i'm not sure if they're sold out--probably though. computer show sat. in edison, gonna pick up a cd burner finally and probably a whole bunch of other toys that i shouldn't spend money on. looks like the high speed internet access isn't gonna be availble in a2 so i may have to just use a modem. dang. i want a t1 again. maybe senior year, back in the dorms? uh... we'll see. but i'll be able to concentrate more without it i know--that's probably more important i guess.

8.11.98
this lab sucks. its too dang cold. i'm freakin sick cause the ac is on way too high. but they figure the computers are more important i suppose.

8.4.98
halfway through summer--still haven't done a lot of things that i had planned to. playing around too much this summer. time to do some reading, brushing up on my chinese characters otherwise tao laoshi won't be too happy this fall. went to see the smashing pumpkins over the weekend at radio city--they rocked. corgan was in tune and the whole band sounded alot better live than i thought. works draggin these days since i can't freakin get my servlet to withstand a stress test. its gonna be a busy weekend, its the grandparents 50th anniversary celebration, which means pictures all day. ugh.

7.21.98
okay okay, i'm bad about keeping this updated--so no more promises. the summer's gone by so fast since i've been playing so much. i met up with like 12 other umich people 2 weekends ago, and went to see miss saigon last thursday. it was da bomb. better than phantom or any other show except maybe les mis. cameron mackintosh just knows how to make shows.

well, i'm trying to cut down on the visits to the city since its killing my cashflow so i guess i need to find some more things to do around home, like studying my chinese characters again. i've forgotten all of them already and i was supposed to get ahead this summer on them for upcoming year. oh well, my parents were probably right when they told me to go to chinese school. work is going well; i pretty much finished the java servlet so now its a matter of testing and fixing some things here and there, i'm just glad that the multithreading capabilites actually work.

7.6.98
started work last week--nothing has really changed from last summer, same faces for the most part, same project, and the same daily grind as usual. the development work is a bit more interesting since we're porting the system from a ccp based x windows client to a transaction based web client. doing a lot of coding in java. the technology is pretty cool, but standardization of it is not where it should be.

spent the july 4th weekend hanging out with old friends. hacked around with my bro's computer for a bit. got linux up and running on it, just messin' around with it so i can hack away for the rest of the summer on it. went to nyc for the 4th, spent too much money, ate too much, saw the fireworks, it was good. probably be back in the city again this weekend hanging out with some umich buddies. ugh, i'm tired, and its only monday.

6.26.98
haven't really written on this for a while. i guess its partly due to my laziness and also the other fact that i've been doing most of my writing in my pgp 128 bit encrypted diary. i'm a freak when it comes to security--i just want to be assured that if i die, the government won't be able to scourage over all my life's deepest thoughts, heh heh.

i'm back in my room in sweet old jersey; it feels so great to be back home where i can just hack and play for a while. and finally i have a clean bathroom again, yeah! no more nasty smelling apartment with no ac and no hot water. and i've even got food in the fridge, home is good!

spring term was cool, not exactly what i expected, but i was able to hang out more than usual and get to know some people better. courseload was really not bad at all, just alot of lab time. orgo is actually pretty cool (i could get killed for saying this), but i guess its too late to wonder what it would of been like to be a chem major. but that's just another "what if" of my life, shouldn't dwell on it. but it feels so good to be done, its been a long 3 semesters and i need a break.

haven't been able to hack around for a while so i've got alot to keep me busy this summer: first a new cable modem connection (i gotta fix up a proxy server so i can split it to the 3 computers in the house), do some network programming in java, fix up my bro's busted p90, and i know i better get to work on the harvest www site soon... etc... the list goes on. we'll see what i really get to this summer. work starts tuesday, should be good--same product as last year, ticket client gui system, just porting it from X to www/java version. enough geekum, time to get some sleep.

5.8.98
spring term has started and i'm sick as hell right now. winter term finished a week ago and all i've done is play since then. it was a fun week, but a total waste of time. grades were good last semester, i actually pulled an A somehow in eecs 380 so that made my semester. spring term should be pretty cool--i'm finishing up orgo but i acutally kinda like this stuff. hmm... maybe biochem was my calling. well, in any case, the pace is pretty fast but the only part that i don't really like is having lab twice a week. i do think though that lab will be better once i get over this cold.

i decided to go back to at&t again for an intership. it came down to deciding if i wanted to work for free for some research scientist at nih or get paid well to do what i wanted at at&t. i chose at&t, not necessarily cause of money though--just didn't want to sit in front of a computer programming code to parse some lab data for someone. i'd rather be doing cool computer stuff. the only reason i wanted to work at nih was to get biomed research experience, not to do more computer work. so, i get to go home for a little bit over the summer, make good money, and basically play at work, not too bad.

3.21.98
all this media hype about those kids who hacked the pentagon is really starting to annoy me--its been played out to be one of the most amazing hacks by "whiz-kids". reports say that its the most "systematic and organized attack on the pentagon to date"--whatever. all it was were 3 stupid kids, who learned of one of the most common exploits (lstad) that anybody can look on the web. i'm sure they didn't even know what exactly they were doing, just typed in a couple of commands they learned from cert and just did it over and over thousands of times on anything ending with a .gov or .mil ending. no brains here, just a major excess of time. and now the kids talk like they're world reknowned hackers capable of anything. just a bunch of hype and attention. well, anyway that was my peave of the week.

3.14.98
orgo has been going well, but eecs is killing me. i don't think i did so hot on the last midterm. things are too hectic now. break was good but it lulled me into a apathetic move--it always takes me some time for me to pick it up again. but u know that i have to go skiing otherwise i'm gonna go crazy. drove up to killington for a couple days, got a speeding ticket on the way up so that was a bummer. the speed limit changed from 55 to 30 in this stupid little "village" in upstate new york. i was 5 min from vermont (i would of been home free casue the laws of reciprocity would protect me from vermont) but the stupid cop pulled me over. it was like 4 am and pitch dark, he could of given me a break. it was the first time i skied out east in like 3 years--i think i'm gonna stay with western skiing, these eastern "hills" just don't cut it anymore. well, next spring break i'll hopefully be in utah, but we'll see.

2.25.98
got a call this morning from nih. really excited about that. hope i get it. the past couple weeks have been busy, but i'm going home in a couple days. i really need it--i need to get out of the midwest for a while. gonna probably go skiing for a bit, but i've still got a lot of work to do, got exams when i get back. classes aren't really too bad this semester, just have to keep on memorizing my chinese characters.

2.7.98
i'm in the um hospital right now, no, nothing happened, just volunteering. its pretty cool, a lot of down time, but working with patients is a good thing. i used to think that i would hate working with sick people all day, and that i just wanted to deal with the pure medicine, but people are great, its good to meet so many different kinds of people. well, gotta get studying after this, there's an orgo exam tuesday and i have progrom i have to get working on. this semester has been a lot less work so far, but my cs class hasn't really started to get heavy yet (due to the laziness of my prof, he hasn't come up with a syllabus so we don't know what's going on), but i think the prog is going to drop a bomb on us soon.

1.30.98
its the new year, not much has happened so far. last semester ended well, but i think i studied maybe a little too much. oh well, i really needed the grades though. i'm taking orgo this semester so i guess i've really decided to go through with premed. i having this dilemma about what to do this summer, some people have told me that i should (since i'm premed) do medical research, but still, i think it would be cool to intern again, maybe at microsoft or hp this time. the money would be real nice too. this kid i know was offered $12,000 for the summer at intel. man, computers is definitely where the money is. i'm gonna try to keep up with this journal-like thing more this semester.

11.23.97
its good... to be... a michigan wolverine!
undefeated season, 11-0, undisputed #1
these kind of things are once in a lifetime... the game was all worth it, rushed the field despite getting maced by the stupid police, celebrated with the players, was two inches from touching the trophy, and kept a piece of the stadium turf... this is what michigan glory is all about...

11.14.97
let's see, the last time i wrote in here, we had just beat colorado in our home opener, and everybody was saying that we would never make it through our "impossible football schedule". well, all i have to say is that penn state learned who's #1. time for wisconsin tomorrow and ohio state... that rose bowl and national championship is ever closer. ok, that's just me letting out some school spirit. its been over a month since i wrote in here and that's because i haven't had anything to write. i think i've learned that when all you do is study, there's not much time to experience interesting things. not that its bad to be like that--i need to study, so its good that i've finally beared down on my books. most people, including my roomates think i'm working too much and not enjoying college. well, they're not completely right or wrong. i'm not having as much fun as i could but i'm more satisfied with the way things are going this year than last. freshman year was fun, hanging out, sleeping at odd times of the day, partying... but i think i've learned that i need to work more and sacrifice some of the fun now to enjoy things later. so, yeah, i don't have as much time to do things, but grades are better, work ethic, and my daily schedule have all been better. i'm by nature a person who needs order and regularity as well as a sense of productivity, i think this semester i'm back to living a normal, disciplined life, and the postive effects of this has presented itself in so many ways, most importantly in my walk with God.

9.26.97
finally the week is over. its been a really long week and i'm so pumped for tomorrow's game. notre dame and michigan! they're going down again. you can feel the wexitement from the campus though i'm sure it would be even better if notre dame didn't suck so much this year. that's ok though, the rivalry is enought for me. people wonder why i'm so into michigan football--let's just say that this year i've cut down on my social life (yeah i'm being a real nerd this year) so football games are a real highlight each weekend. plus you have to have some school pride. the semester has been alot of work so far but pretty good. i think its a good balance to have two cs classes and two non-science classes. i think i made the right decision to do cs instead of comp engin. i was never big into that ee stuff anyway.

church has really been blessed this year--we've almost doubled in size from last year. i don't know if it's all the freshman that come now or if there are more upperclassmen coming as well. there are so many people there whom i haven't met yet. all of this is really encouraging since i know a lot of devoted people put a tremendous amout of time and energy into this church. i think God has really shown his blessings this year.

9.13.97
MICHIGAN OVER COLORADO 27-3! ROSE BOWL! :)

8.30.97
finally back in ann arbor. the drive was not that bad though i did get really bored in pennsylvania. i'm homeless for a 2 days until our lease starts but i've always bummed around people's places. i've got a lot to take care of before i go but i need to find a place to relax first.

8.28.97
i'm on my way back to michigan tomorrow. dang, i can't believe how much stuff i still have. i tried cutting down on miscellaneous things this year but i've still ended up with way too many boxes. its gonna be a real pain because i'm living with a friend until sept. 1 when my lease finally starts, pretty much meaning that i'm gonna have to move my stuff twice. ok, gotta go do some last minute shopping before tomorrow.

8.20.97
just got back from wash dc yesterday, it was a really good trip. i was only there for 3 days and did alot of driving but it was nice to get away from home for a while. angie and i met up with jimmy, nancy, and jane for the weekend; jimmy and i went around dc while the girls went shopping for awhile. they all live so close but live in such different worlds. jimmy's in northern virginia (nova) which is alot like jersey. kinda suburbia but not that much with alot of store and shops. maryland seems a lot more countrylike, especially where nancy lives--its the boonies outsite of baltimore. we were driving on this backroad and then nancy says that she's never been on that road without a deer crossing it. weird. back home now, trying to get some things done before i leave for school again, like packing.

8.9.97
one more week until i finish work, then its time to have some fun! i'm pretty sure that i'm gonna make a trip down to wash dc for a couple days to see some michigan people but who knows what will come up--something always seems to. well, i've done a lot of thinking this summer and my medical aspirations are stronger than ever it seems. its not just because i didn't like the at&t workplace, its the whole field in general. i know this sounds like a very naive and premature judgment, but i've been pondering this for a while now. i've heard all the negatives of the other side, but i feel that medicine is where i belong, and its where God thinks i belong. of course, i'm not going to change my major or anything, it just means that i'm gonna be spending my summers taking premed classes (well, only orgo), researching, and preparing for mcat's.

most people are telling me i'm stupid or crazy for doing this cause computer's will get me a good job but to them i ask, what do you consider a good job? one that pays well? well, in that case, yes computer are a pretty good job cause they will always bring in money, and so would business (even more i'm sure), but what's important in my opinin is if you love what your doing. i do like hacking around with computers, there's no doubt to that but i see my hacking with them as a hobby, an amusement. its interesting, its fun, but its still only an amusement in my opinion, and i am content to keep it as that. to be able to deal directly with people, relieve they're hurt, they're suffering is a career that would truly satisfy me. perhaps i could apply my computer knowledge to aid me, but in essence it is the medicine that is important.

over this summer, i had an officemate for a week (i got moved from office to office alot), that claimed the whole universe was all for his amusement--quite amusing i thought to myself. now i didn't want to get into a religious debate with this guy at work, so i went along with this little conversation/argument and found his views rather interesting. it seemed to me that he enjoyed his job, because it was an amusement to him, just another one of the universes. to him there was nothing in the universe more than amusement, since he claimed that the universe circled around him (that was a whole other claim and argument), and was there for his enjoyment, he did what he thought was most amusing to him, computer testing. "why would i want to worry about other people, and have to deal with they're problems," he claimed. well, this whole drawn out argument just strengthned my view that yes computers were merely amusing, that for me there are more important things to spend a lifetime on. all of this seems very ideological i admit, but what is life without dreams and aspirations, these are what give us the determination and drive to reach our highest, not cynicism and pessimism.

7.17.97
i can't believe that it's already july and that i've been home for over 2 months now. i'm debating whether i should give myself 2 weeks break before school or just work out the rest of the summer--i need money though. hopefully, i'll be able to go back to school at least a week before classes start, but my apartment lease doesn't start until sept 1, which is 2 days before classes begin.

i'm sitting here now, at work, with nothing to do but read and write on my webpage. my code for work has been done for over a week and half now, but people are too busy here to really spend time with me. hopefully next week i can finally submit my code and build it to see if it will actually work--i just hope that i don't crash their product.

i went to a bible study for the first time a in while yesterday. it was pretty good but i was the only guy there, kinda weird. i really have to start being more disciplined with my devotions and quiet timel i thought it would be easy to keep it up over the summer with all my time but i'm just too lazy.

finally, some of my friends are starting to write/improve their webpages, i knew they would eventually get hooked on it. the latest victim is jason cho who's seems to be addicted to photoshop now. he's working as a counselor for camp caen, a computer camp run by the univeristy. i guess spending all day with computers you'll eventually get hooked. anyways, i'm not sure when i'll something to write about again, but its been a good summer so far...

6.7.97
i've finally revamped the main page with a javascript enhanced toolbar. u see, work is pretty slow and mundane, so i have a lot of free time to work on other things. summer is slowly draggin on--i've been home for more than a month now but i feel that i have gotten nothing done this summer. like i said before, work is really lax, basically people don't have that much time for me so my progress is not particularly rapid. i spend a lot of my work day reading computer stuff. i think i've learned three new computer languages since working... kinda sick isn't it? well, usually by the time i get home from work, i'm sick of sitting in front of a computer or anything related so i'll go and play some ball or something. my nights are usually spent hanging out with some friends, or something along those lines. that's pretty much how everyday this summer goes, not very exciting is it. but, i think the thing i wanted to do most this summer was to spend time learning or doing something non-enginering/science related. my whole school year is spent doing math problems, doing more physics problems, and sitting in the lab for hours writing code. and now this summer, i'm in front a computer for 40 hours a week. doesn't a person need some balance in one's life? i had always said that i hated humanities and social science in high school but i find myself now wishing that i could further broaden myself with in those areas.

5.4.97
i'm back in jersey now, trying to go to sleep but i can't cause me sleeping schedule is all messed up from college... i'm used to sleeping at 4 or 5 and waking up around noon or later... i know that's eral lazy of me...anyways my parents are gettin on my case now about gettin up in the middle of the day... plus i got work starting soon so i better start waking up at a more reasonable time... i used to be a morning person too. haven't done much since getting home... unpacked saw some friends (those who are back) and played some ball. gotta do something before work starts, hopefully i'll go to the city

4.28.97
I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL! took my last exam in eecs today, and haven't done a single productive thing since... its weird not having any work to do u know... whenever i'm just being idle now, i keep thinking to myself that i'm supposed to be doing something, hmm... maybe i'll have more time work mess around with the webpage. nah... i think i should do something more productive or fun. exams weren't that bad (i'm not saying i did well on them :) but its kinda sad that everything is coming to an end already. it feels like yesterday when i first got here and unpacked my stuff... time to repack it now. i'm not a freshman anymore... weird.

well, i'll be home in jersey on saturday and i think i'm gonna be really lazy for two weeks, then i'll start work at at&t. its a good job, kinda strange cause i see all of my parent's friends and even some of my aunts and uncles there... makes me feel really old. but, i have nothing better to do this summer. i might go out to california to see my grandparents but i'm not too sure about that, maybe i'll go to chicago, its supposed to be pretty cool there, according to dimply dave. who knows... i think i'm just gonna relax and enjoy the nice weather for a while... oh yeah, now that i'm at home, i don't have ethernet (and i won't from now on since i'm in an apartment next year), so the web pages are going to back on the michigan servers instead of my own, dang its gonna be weird going back to a modem connection...

4.11.97
the calm before the storm... or just a break before finals. had my last exam last week before finals come up next week... it sucks that i still have this program due on monday. what i said before about the weather being nice? well forget about that, its cold again... last sunday i went into the computer lab around 5pm in shorts cause it was around 70 out, when i came out around 5am, the temp had dropped about 40 degrees, it was below freezing. what's up with this michigan weather? anyways, my dad came into town for a week since he was taking a class at the b-school... too bad i couldn't spend more time with him, though he did buy a bunch of groceries for me. well, i'll see him back home in two weeks. i really need to do something with this webpage... maybe this summer i'll have more time... but then i lose the ethernet... man, too bad my apartment next year won't have ethernet... gotta use the stupid modem again. hmm... along the lines of my future apartment, i gotta learn to cook soon, i can't eat tv dinners everyday...

4.2.97
3 more weeks left of school... too bad cause the weather is finally really nice, but i hear summers here are really hot and humid... guess this is the best time of the year. a lot has happened this week, had a killer program due, some exams, and then got baptised on sunday. it was a really special day, easter, a day i won't forget. but now i'm back to the usual work, can't wait to get back to jersey this summer.

3.20.97
woh... what a night... i haven't slept since tuesday but its such a nice day out that i don't feel like taking a nap. Its close to 60 degrees and sunny... u don't get many of these days in michigan. So after physics lab, i went blading for the first time in a month... still a little rusty but the grinding is coming along, got to get some pads so i can try some rails. this week has been like hell, i've been in the library almost 10 hours a day and the rest of the time behind a computer. i think tonight will be the first time i can relax a bit... but only for a bit since i got a program due monday, oh the life of an enginerd.

3.15.97
its been a long time since i've written. well a lot has happened, more than half the semester is over. things have been pretty good, grades are pretty good and spring break was great. yeah, i went skiing again in colorado, this time i think i've really fallen in love with vail. it is by far the best ski resort in the country, well besides maybe snowbird. but i have yet to try whistler/blackcomb in b.c. canada. i think i may go there next year, i hear its pretty cool. well, since getting back its been hard to get into the studying mode again, but i've got a huge load of work due next week including a new program so i'll be pretty busy the next couple of weeks. can't wait till the weather warms up, its really cold again after being warm for a week. my friend from indiana came up for the week but too bad i have too much work to really show him around.

1.7.97
back to school now...break was cool and skiing was great...ok new year, hopefully classes will be better...at least i don't have an 8:00 class this semester...gotta unpack now

12.17.96
FINALS ARE OVER... well almost, i have a writing portfolio due tomorrow but once i hand that in tomorrow morning, i'll be on my way home to jersey. spend a week at home...then go out to colorado and ski for a week. i'll be at vail, copper mtn, and breckenridge mostly so if your there this christmas break, look for a big blue north face jacket (yeah whatever). michigan basketball, #4 in the nation...btw louis bullock was my english partner this semester.

11.14.96
well i just took my calc midterm and i didn't know most of the answers, but i still did well. kinda strange, heh? yeah i probably got a %70 or something but the mean will probably be a %50 which means i'll get a pretty good curve. that's what's cool about college. i'm procrastinating writing my paper for tomorrow but i'll get around to soon.

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